Quiet struggle

I have a confession to make. Sometimes I burrow away from everything I love. Sometimes my inner critic digs a hole and I slide in. I may have a phone in that hole and I may talk to my friends. They say, “Wow, I can hear you so clearly. Are you standing in an open meadow with no signal barriers?” This is when I know I am in a danger zone. Everyone sees a clear picture of me and my surroundings, but my vision is distorted and my head is throbbing and I can’t make sense of right or left. Are you living a lie too?

People: Wow, great job doing x,y & z. I knew you could do x,y & z.

Me: x,y & z everyday? I am not so sure…

X being “get out of bed”, Y being “go to work”, Z being “smile”. You can’t admit x,y & z are a struggle most days. Can you?

The point of this dreadful post: Please admit it. It’s okay to not be able to do the little things- It’s not okay to let shame take over. And maybe I can be sappy for a moment? Just remember, you don’t know what others are going through- because most of the time we won’t admit it- so send a smile their way even if that is something you struggle with. Make that  your smile quota for the day.